Babies and Placentas

So I am getting in deep with school, literally. I went to my first OB lab day and I delivered a baby (a fake one, don't get too excited for me). What I learned from this experience is labor is horrifying! I watched a C-section on video and delivered the fake baby (and the placenta) from a mannequin that breathed, screamed, and cursed. Then once I delivered the baby it went cyanotic! So I decided that I am going to start a list of 100 things that scare the crap out of me about child birth! So let's just get it out of the way...

#100- did you know your placenta turns blue???? That can't be normal!

Ok, now that we've got that out of the way let's continue on about what's going on in the crazy world of nursing. I took my first med/surg test, and I felt like I was well prepared. I spent ungodly amounts of time studying... but let's face it, it really could have been more. So test day came around and I thought I was going to do well... then I sat down and took the test...

76%, yes, that's what I said... 76% My first test of the semester and I bombed it!!!! I had a major panic attack and quickly realized that the small life I keep trying to keep grasp of now must be non-existent. Damn. My life will now consist of studying, working, and more studying. Luckily the test did par up to passing (barely), and I went and met up with my instructor to talk about my low score. Russ (my instructor) was so kind, he listened to me vent and gave me great ideas of what to work on. But I had to laugh when he asked me about my work schedule. He highly suggested that I go part time... I slapped myself in the face and wondered why I hadn't though of that! I had to smile and simply tell him that I agree, but that was not in the cards for me. Though I am stressed and freaking out about working full time while going to school I know I have to do it (not only because of the money) but because Britney, Chris, Amber, and Hannah all did it, I can't be a pansy and know my friends could do it but I can't... so now it's a challenge to myself to be as cool as those guys handling work full time and studying double full time.

So I have my first OB test on Tuesday and I am praying to Buddha, Jesus, and Santa Claus (in no particular order) that I pass! I have spent more time than ever before studying, and if I go down it won't be without a fight!

Thanks again to all of you for your love and support. I will keep you update with my list of 100 reasons that pregnancy scares the hell out of me! Love you guys!